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16 julio 2024

So, I've been reading around the community and it's just awesome being here. I'm learning a lot from everyone. I love there are people who want to gain weight, lose weight and are maintaining. The best thing for me is the food diary. Being able to see my salt is amazing and pushes me to avoid the snacks for more healthier options or make my choice of eat it then stop eating and drink water.Portion control is key but if you can chose not to do it, then we shouldn't. I hope to one day stop picking my poison as they say and just be fully healthy. I know there are things I just enjoy so I have an everything in moderation philosophy. But there are somethings I will just say no to due to food allergies of my son and hubby.

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16 julio 2024

When I went to the doctor today I felt good about my weigh-in because I was able to zip some pants up that I just got back into fitting by myself. Usually, my hubs had to help me zip it while I pull the sides together. My blood pressure is very good. 115/81 I hope to get off of waterpills.

Peso:	Disminuído hasta ahora:	Aún para ir:	Dieta seguida:
143,8 kg	2,7 kg	64,4 kg	Bien

(12 comentarios) Perdiendo 6,4 kg a la Semana

15 julio 2024

Today is WORKOUT DAY!!! I do it every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. I used to do it every day but my body had a sudden inflammatory response so I dropped it 5 after a one month recovery and I got an inflammation response again. It was difficult to walk and I could not lift my arms above my head. So after that my hubby said maybe you can't workout everyday. I tried that and have not experienced any problems since then. My body now needs more recovery time and I need to soak in a bath after I'm done.

Now that I have explained that my son works out with me for my second half. I do a Team Body Project workout before he wakes up varying from 30-60 minutes using my weights most of the time going from cardio to resistance or mostly a mixed workout they create that hits all areas at my pace and strength for the day. Today's Walking Cardio AKT was fun but tough because it was non-stop and the moves used the full body at all times with many variations of squats. (My kind of good time )I also completed a 25 minute Cardio workout from Lucy Wyndham Read. Kicked my butt. I was drenched by the end. Glad I had a two hour rest in-between before my son woke. I'm a early riser. Start my day between 3am and 5am most days.

Well the reason I wrote this post is because of my son and the hilarious and unexpectantly painful comment he said. I couldn't stop laughing but I thought just wow.

This is what happened during the Lucy 25 minute walk through Venice video. ( free on youtube if you want to check her out. Using her workouts alone(and my best nutrition) before I got pregnant in 2016 I went from 500 in 2013 down to 297.)

I let him play a bit in the workouts to keep it interesting and fun. This time he chose to walk around with his airplane in his hand. I was keeping a good pace so I was walking behind him. He creates stories for his toys and this time bacause we did arm exercises his plane and the people in it had lots of turbulance. Because I was keeping up with him he suddenly said " Oh no, we are approaching a big mountain as he flew the plane towards me. I said "Wait, am I the big mountain" He said " Yes, its pretend." I just started to laugh and I told him I get it but be careful because making someone who is trying to lose weight a big mountain might hurt their feelings. I still can't stop laughing about it because I know he didn't mean any harm and kids perspective of looking up at us all the times makes the world seem so much bigger. That incident made me realize being called big is still a bit of a painful emotional trigger. I'm proud I have grown emotionally to beable to still play with my son, enjoy the workout and let those dark thoughts disapate with light and love because I am big in many ways.

Thanks for reading and I hope you got a laugh as well. If this trigered any bad memories of any bullying you experienced due to your size you can smile at how much it doesn't hold power over you anymore as well.

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14 julio 2024

Today I woke up feeling motivated but also a bit down on myself. I look at my hubby who is so fit with his gorgeous body and wonder why he's with me when there are so many drop dead gorgeous people out here who have what others would call the full package. I'm grateful he loves me for me on the inside and he's always shown me he likes my cushy outsides as well. Always supportive and loving from day one we met in 2013 when I was 6x at 500pds. He's never pressured me to lose weight or gain it.

I will finally stop hurting myself mentally and feeling unworthy. If anyone else has a spouse who you feel is more attractive than you, know that they were attracted because you are attractive and that's it. No one else's opinion matters. I realized ultimately that's a them problem. Those who were bold enough to flat-out ask him, his answer back to them always made me cry. He said, could you live without your air?

Now, just moments after, I'm looking in the mirror and I feel proud of me that I continue to do my best to take the best care of me and really love myself. I've survived the childhood trauma from my mother's own self hate (we worked it out, she did what she could with what she was given) and the pressure of society that you must look and be a certain way to be accepted. I'm stronger now. There are ups and downs (like today of course because when you're headed to something remarkable at times little demons of thoughts come up from the past to make you dwell on dumb things that aren't true) but overall my health is what's important. The only one I have to impress is me.

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13 julio 2024

Today went pretty smooth. I was tempted to eat more but the salt content stopped me today and I asked myself if I was really hungry or just sad and stressed. The answer turned out to be I was worried. There is so much that is about to change and thinking about it in my subconscious catches up with me after awhile. Glad I made the choice today to just say no. I don't have to eat all the calories I'm allowed to either. For today my emotional eating bug was defeated.

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