Diario de Nikitawells, 21 oct. 10

Well one thing that I'm learning is that, you have to get use to more than just your new lifestyle. I just not use to this new body yet. It doesn't feel comfortable. It's not what I am use to. I look great! Feel great! But this body feels like I'm in someone else's skin. This is so new to me. I got sculpted arms, strong legs, small waist. Everything I always wanted. I believe now the reason I did my last self sabotage, is because in subconscious I wanted back what was familiar. I kept wondering why did I go back to how I felt in the beginning. I think slow is much better. You have time to feel the new you! I am very much aware of how my mind and body have just connected. Sometimes it takes a while for your mind to catch up. I still had a fat mind set even after losing so much weight. Looking in the mirror was like looking in magnified glasses. I couldn't see what everyone saw. I still believed I was large. Then one day, the glasses came off and all hell broke loose. I lost it. Now I felt and looked skinny. Ok, why not have that bag of chips. Then, I was stuck (only for a day or three) in the guilt cycle of eating unhealthy and disliking myself for it but couldn't stop! This is how I got fat in the first place. Now I know. It definitely is gonna take time to get use to this healthy, slim new body! But I'm willing to do it!

68,5 kg Disminuído hasta ahora: 34,0 kg.    Aún para ir: 11,8 kg.    Dieta seguida: 100%.