Diario de JLThreatful, 20 jul. 18

My grandparents raised me. My Gramma called yesterday and told me my Grampa has dementia. I'm not to say anything to anyone just immediate family and suppose to treat him the same. My Grandfather is incredibly intelligent. I used the whole thing as an excuse to drink and although my weight is 121.4 which is not accurate since I am most definitely dehydrated. I feel like someone punched me in the stomach. There are so many other stresses going on and I find myself drowning in it. Drinking sure didn't help - crying doesn't either. Today I have to get it together. I'm going to the gym this morning - its not going to feel good - and I don't care. I am angry at the whole thing. Now that I have vented I'm going to try to turn this freight train around and focus on being healthy and less of a sabotage queen. I hope everyone has a happy and healthy day - let us be thankful for our wits and our ability to thing clearly however close or far away we are from our goals.

55,1 kg Disminuído hasta ahora: 3,5 kg.    Aún para ir: 2,9 kg.    Dieta seguida: Bien.