Diario de icmethin

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09 agosto 2010

I'm so tired of feeling like I'm in a fat suit. When I sit down it feels like I can't breathe because the roll under my bra is bigger than my boobs. I HATE the way I look and feel!!!! I keep trying to find a new hairstyle to make me look better, or new cosmetics to make me look prettier, or new skin care to make me look younger, but the problem isn't any of those. It's because I'm so overweight my face looks like a pumpkin. Nothing is going to make it look any better other than losing weight. I can't hide the fat cheeks or the double chin behind makeup or a new hairstyle. I looked really hard at myself in the mirror and thought, "Who is that? That's not me! Look at how heavy she looks. She looks like an M&M with arms." It was eye-opening and quite digusting.

I'm also really tired of being tired. I am so worn out at the end of the day from carrying all this weight. My knees hurt. My lower back hurts. My shoulders hurt. My hips ache ALL the time!!! I feel like I'm 75 years old and I'm only 46!!!! My husband who is 14 years older than me can outwork and outlast me any day of the week. If I don't give control of my eating, exercising, and thinking to the Lord, I'm never going to succeed. I am asking Him to be Master over my mind, body, spirit, eating, thinking, exercising...over the whole of me. I keep trying to do it on my own and I'm failing miserably. I'm supposed to be such a strong Christian, but I always try to do things of my own ability...and let me tell you, my abilities are nonexistant. It's time to walk hand in hand with the Master and let Him master this mountain for me.
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