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02 octubre 2008

Damned up/down, up/down. Grrrrr. I'm so frustrated with my weight. Oh well, at least I stayed 2.5 pounds down for the week so far. My "official" weigh in is tomorrow, although I weigh every damned day.

I didn't have Chinese food last night, but I did go out for dinner with friends at Outback. I had a 6 oz steak w/ a baked sweet potato and house salad w/ light dressing (only half of it). I unfortunately also indulged in about 1/5 of a piece of chocolate-chocolate tower cake with my 2 girlfriends. It was HUGE, but I managed to only eat about 1/5 of it. We actually left about 1/3 of it on the plate. That was a first for us. haha. You all know how well us women resist chocolate on chocolate.

Peso:	Disminuído hasta ahora:	Aún para ir:	Dieta seguida:
109,5 kg	1,1 kg	19,3 kg	Bien

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01 octubre 2008

Peso:	Disminuído hasta ahora:	Aún para ir:	Dieta seguida:
109,1 kg	1,6 kg	18,8 kg	100%

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30 septiembre 2008

2 years; 200 lbs
That's my goal.
I want to lose 200 pounds, and I'm giving myself 2 years in which to do it. I'm still not sure that my husband is on board for me losing such a HUGE amount of weight. The first 100 pounds is one thing because I'm really only 40 pounds lighter than I was when we met. That's not a HUGE difference, but it's enough to give me firmer parts.. haha. He's okay with that. I find him looking at me strangely lately.... like he's trying to commit the "new me" to memory. He actually took his phone out today while we were talking and took a picture of me. He hasn't done that in ages. I think he's starting to realize that I'll be hotter when I'm thinner. HAHA. He already thinks I'm beautiful, but my features are starting to be more defined vs. hidden by hundreds of pounds of excess fat.

I hope he doesn't stop loving me, and I know that's a silly fear. It's still a fear I hold. I was 280 pounds when I met my husband. He loved me at that weight. I was 340 pounds when we got married. He loved me at that weight. I'm 241 pounds now, and he loves me at this weight. I just hear him comment on skinny girls all the time and how they are too thin and he doesn't like that. I wonder if he'll stop finding me as attractive when I get down to my goal weight, or if he'll be attracted to me in a completely different way.

Gosh, I know this is silly. I feel so silly when I put it all down, but that's just how I feel. I mean, I'm married to a man who's always been attracted to big women. He finds the female body extremely sexy, and moreso when it's bigger.

I just don't know what I'll look like at 140. I mean, what if I lose all of my curves at that weight? I've never been that small. What happens if I look like a completely different person? *sigh* I worry too much I think. I know that being smaller will make me happier. I know that he will be happy if I'm happy. I know that he'll never be unhappy with my physical body. I know that he will love me no matter what I weigh or don't weigh.. but I can't help but wonder.

Does anyone else have these issue?

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30 septiembre 2008

So I'm down 3 lbs today, but I know that was solely due to yesterday's sickness. I hope I don't shoot back up tomorrow after eating regularly and re-hydrating, though I'm 99% sure that I will! Oh well, I'll REALLY be this close to my 100 lb loss very soon. I'm still hoping that Friday's weigh in is 240 or less... that's my 100 lb loss mark!

Peso:	Disminuído hasta ahora:	Aún para ir:	Dieta seguida:
109,1 kg	1,6 kg	18,8 kg	Bien

(3 comentarios) Perdiendo 9,5 kg a la Semana

29 septiembre 2008

Okay, so I'm trying to lose these stubborn ROLLS of fat on my back and stomach. Any suggestions on the best exercises to do? I mean, I know they are smaller than they used to be, but they drive me absolutely crazy! I hate, hate, hate my rolls.
I'm having a "hate me" day today. It should pass in a couple of minutes though!

Just as I had anticipated, my "hate me" day is now an "I'm fabulous" day! *smile* I'm such a mood swinger.

Sick! Sick! Sick! I am miserable! I've been nauseated for the past 2+ hours. Bananas are not fun coming up. I didn't have lunch, and I'm thinking dinner will be out at this rate. I MAY have soup if I can stomach it. *sigh*

Well, I'm feeling sufficiently better. I did eat a can of Healthy Request Chicken Noodle soup. *sigh* I'm at least 80% back to normal. I hope when I wake up in the morning I'll be 100%. I think so!

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