Well,
Right now I'm sitting at home while my parents have gone to the meeting. I didn't wnat to go because I didn't want to limp in front of everyone else. The very idea makes me kind of sick, to think that they"d try to pity me. But really my apprehension comes from my self consciousness mostly.
I need to be able to go door to door, and do things that normal young people do. I just noticed tonight that I use food as a way to focus all my attention on nothing. And that sucks, I guess that's how I got into this state, but I'm willing to really make an effort to change that. So much of my youth was wasted on doing nothing, catering to theres, and feeling empty- I'm so tired of that!
This my attempt to change all that.
