Diario de ny_shelly, 16 mar. 16

I would like to get to 299 by the end of July, before I go on vacation. It will give me good incentive to stick to my food plan because I don't want to ever go into 300 ever again.

It will be hard work. I had a mini binge last night, but it could have been way worse. I went to Boston Market for dinner. Just ate white meat chicken, saved the side salads for today (I got 2 salads instead of the hi carb options) and then I found the dreaded yummy delicious corn bread.

Well, I stared at that thing. I ate the ends off. Then I started imagining going through the drive through and getting a 6 pack. My hands shook. I swallowed and there was a lump there.

NO NO NO

Step away from the corn bread.

I threw it out the window where a happy bunch of seagulls swooped down and gobbled it up.

Whew, that was a close one.

Later I still didn't do great. I ate a bunch of cheese and a few tablespoons of peanut butter. I know if I had switched to being mindful and done a mindfulness exercise I could have avoided it.

But I gotta be honest. It is like being addicted to drugs. This food gives me a relief from anxiety because I have been binge eating for 30 years. My brain is conditioned for it. It knows when the food comes, the dopamine is released, and ahhhh i feel so much better.

I am being kind to myself about it because you can't fix it in 6 days. I have to keep looking at the big picture.

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1494 kcal

Grasa: 94,90g | Prot: 120,81g | Carbh: 32,37g.   Desayuno: McDonald's Sausage Patty, McDonald's Scrambled Eggs. Almuerzo: Ken's Steak House Lite Northern Italian, Boston Market Market Chopped Side Salad without Dressing. Cena: Mozzarella Cheese, Parmesan Cheese (Shredded), Beef Meatballs, Chicken Wing (Skin Eaten), Chicken Wing (Skin Not Eaten). más...