Diario de MrsTofu, 05 ago. 11

I am finding repeatedly, and much to my chagrin, that I overeat and eat compulsively. I've gained more weight which isn't surprising. I don't like myself and how I behave around food. I tend to resent it, yet that doesn't stop me from shoveling it in. I feel both afraid of and resigned to getting bigger. :(

The really frustrating and discouraging thing is that I know better. I realize sometimes that I am making a bad choice as I am making it, but it doesn't click enough to stop me in my tracks. I think I just am really disappointed/ discouraged/ mad about how I was so close to my goal at the beginning of the year and I've just managed to backslide so far.