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I have gained 3 pounds in the past three days. I am at 167.2.... the most I have consumed in one day is 1800 calories. I don't know what is going on..I am feeling really discouraged. I want to reach my goal of 130 lbs. so badly. I literally hate myself. my boyfriend isn't attracted to me and only touches me out of pity. he tells me weekly that he doesn't want sex, he just does it to make me happy. I feel so unattractive and gross. I have only been with two men in 16 years. I don't think I even know what I am doing in the bedroom. I used to be 325 lbs. so I have alot of excess skin. I do not look good naked at all. I was honest with him before we were very serious and moved in together. I let him see my body. truthfully, he has e.d. I know it is not his fault... but, I don't interest him at all? does that mean he doesn't enjoy it when we are intimate? I know this post is all over the place. I am really hurting. I feel so freaking ugly and gross. I feel helpless. I am drawing pretty badly right now.
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1219 kcal
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Grasa: 48,89g | Prot: 54,33g | Carbh: 136,54g.
Desayuno: Schwan's Pigs in a Blanket, Coffee-Mate Toasted Marshmallow Mocha Coffee Creamer. Almuerzo: Chocolate Fudge. Cena: Cooked Red Peppers (Fat Not Added in Cooking), Tyson Foods Boneless Skinless Chicken Breasts, Old El Paso Black Bean Refried Beans. más...
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