Diario de redwinelover, 14 may. 11

Meant to be better at doing this more regularly. Life sometimes gets in the way! lol...

Things are ... well... AWESOME. That's about all I can say. Don't know why, but I'll take it. I wake up feeling good, positive, loving and loved... most of the day is the same and I end the day feeling this way. Life is GOOD.

Diet front - could be better. But it could be worse, too! Weight is up - 128 1/2 or so. But not stressing about it. I know at least a little bit of that is muscles holding on to water. I'm using the kettle bells my daughter gave me for Mother's Day and wow, really feel like I'm LIFTING weights. That same kind of feeling in the body... BEASTLY... feeling sort of Amazon Woman-ish! lol... Just feeling strong these days and like the way that feels. Today, though, I did the kickboxing dvd - burned close to 350 calories. Felt really good doing it, too. Felt stronger than I have for a while. I think I'm going to stick to switching off - kettle bells one day and a workout like the kickboxing another day. Feeling empowered! lol Enough about how STRONG I'm feeling?

Even though my weight is up, most of my clothes are fitting again. Or those that still fit look better - less muffin top and less saddlebag. I'll take it.

I have a derm appointment in 11 days. I'm going to see if we could set up my second Fraxel treatment (and last, I hope! So much for a 'one and done' procedure). And I'm going to BEG for more pain pills this next time around. Last time it was excruciating! OMG... can't describe it other than by the time she got to the cheeks, it felt like Freddy Kruger nails being run up and down my cheeks. And no kidding, at the time it was being done, that's what I was picturing happening. That's how wrapped up in the pain I got. I wish she did twilight anesthesia. And in AZ there are only TWO derms that do the Fraxel re:pair procedure. Tons that do the other Fraxel ones, but only two qualified for the "big guns". Anyway, the first one has done so much good as far as how my skin looks that even if she won't give me more pain meds, I'll still go for it. This procedure (for me) is so painful - they use a topical numbing cream on your face... let that sit for 1 1/2 hrs. then give you dental blocks, give you anti-anxiety meds and a pain pill AND give you little bits of novacain shot on your face as they go along. And STILL it hurt like hell. She DID remark that I'm a VERY FAST metabolizer of meds. Shit. Too bad that fast metabolism doesn't extend to FOOD! lol... Anyway, assuming my skin can take a second treatment that soon, I'm hoping to set this up for the end of June. The reason being, you have to be uber careful of sun exposure for three months (especially... but really, always need to apply sunscreen) and I figure if I get it done then, then my husband and I can start hiking again when it cools back down some in late Sept. or early Oct.

hmmm... I guess that's all that's going on at the moment (that I can talk about! lol) I'm going to try to be more consistent with journaling (again....I know I ALWAYS say this) AND with recording food and exercise. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

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1086 kcal

Grasa: 28,15g | Prot: 25,88g | Carbh: 79,00g.   Desayuno: Blueberries, Strawberries, English Walnuts, organic flax pumpkin granola, Sugar Free French Vanilla Coffee Creamer, Almonds, Total 2% Yogurt, fiber gummies, celsius. Almuerzo: grape tomatoes, veggie straws, laughing cow. Cena: Cabernet Sauvignon Wine. más...