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I haven't been on this site in forever. I was in this calorie counting class back in April til June, I fell off the wagon and have not been able to get back on. I am so disgusted with myself I can hardly stand it. Its so much easier not think about everything I put in my mouth, and being so "who cares". Well if I don't care no one is gonna do it for me and I plain old don't feel good. My clothes are tight, my feet hurt, my legs hurt, I'm not sleeping well and God knows what else, all because I am not disciplined enough to stop putting food in my mouth. I don't really feel like I have any support at home or at work to keep me on track. I need to do something and soon I have 2 weddings to attend next year, one in April (family friend) and the important one in November (my daughter), I don't want to be an embarassment to her, she would never say that to me but I would feel it. I don't have a very positive view of myself right now, because I am so over weight. I know that this is sounding like a woe is me pity party, but I guess I had to put it down in words, to maybe help put some motivation under my butt and stop making excuses. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH ALREADY, I need to stop whining and do something and do it now. Thanks for listening, I'll be back soon to update progress.
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