Diario de JMA312, 22 sep. 20

Why can't I get "him" (the ghoster) out of my head and just move on? I know the last communo was a week ago Sunday (text saying he is ok, just going thru some 'stuff'). Now I just need to let go and be done with it/him. I did let him know I was here for him if he needed & he said he knew that & thanks, so that was 'nice'. But still, WTH is going on? I really want to eat junk & drink right now. I passed by temptation places this morning when I went out and told myself "NO", but still I want to just zone out for awhile. I just don't understand how someone could/would just do/don't do what he is doing/not doing. I just feel worthless, helpless & alone. I know I'll be ok and I know all that is not really true (being those things) but I can't help feeling like that sometimes. I guess I just need to get out, outside in nature, outside of myself, I think I'll go for a walk.
Hope ALL is well in FS-Land & take care to ALL.