Diario de GlennM, 28 jun. 13

Hope you had a successful shopping trip!  

Hi Buffy, my friend worked late and went home. I went shopping on Saturday, missed church. I woke up at 1 a.m. so I will maybe try to go back to bed soon or read. The weather is great - no need for a.c. and that is unusual this time of year. I only used it about three days all day this year, maybe four. By late August it is rarely needed here. Next weekend camping so I will be off of here, but I will be keeping track of my calories to enter them in here. Those 100 calorie bags of popcorn are great if one is hungry for a snack, the Jolly Time ones are especially filling. I know my calorie intake is so low I am not getting enough vitamins so I bought some vitamins today for older people, I am 51 now, so I am realizing very much how fast life is passing by, and I have very little assets, but in a hundred fifty years none of us here now will be around anyway, so it really doesn't matter in the scheme of things. I realize too many marry for financial reasons, and I am very glad I never married, most marriages I know of are train wrecks anyway, my parents did a wonderful job of having such a horrible marriage (and they were nasty people on top of it) that I vowed when I moved out I would never marry. My mom said when I was EIGHT - I pity your future wife. Thanks to my witch-like mother and father who was no better, they did a good enough job convincing me marriage is a joke.  

And I have reached a good place too, that I do not need to be going to the beach with relatives who don't invite me, I don't need to go to weddings (without a date), I don't need to take care of some woman and her kids whose father is some loser. I don't know where all the years went, my dad's mom told me when I was young it would pass very fast if one looked back on it. She lived to be 80. She is right. I am closer to 80 than 21, life is a fast go-round, and it's for the young too, and the privileged also. I am doing OK, but life is not meant to be for the poor. One young man my friends know is in his 20s, low income and not well physically and he is suicidal at a young age - so he sees the reality of it already. I had delusions I would be a published author by 35, it still hasn't happened. I may self-publish in the next few years. But I am VERY jaded for someone only 51. I had to stop talking to my mother who always was saying nothing matters, life is a waste of time for most people, there is no God, etc. It was just too much negativity and it rubs off if one hears it enough.