Diario de Shannon_21, 11 jun. 08

Curse those orange Hostess Cupcakes..8 per box I ate over 2 days! Every bite was pure heaven. Now this morning I was kicked out of heaven as I stepped on the scale. Now Im trying to see my way out of this hell Im in.

Yes, dramatic I am. Addicted I am. 4 pounds heavier I am. I hate my life.

Tomorrow is another day with a fresh beginning....

I must not want to be 119 bad enough. I keep forgetting how badly I want it when my clothes start to fit good after low carbing..I figure..one bite. One cup cake. One box of cup cakes. A pancake breakfast. 2 bowls of 200 cal/cup cereal. Whats the harm??????

Here I sit admitting yet again my failures. When Im on plan, Im right on plan..but when I decide..."whats the harm" I sabotage the very reason I got on play. The kicker is that I didnt even have a craving when I ate the cupcakes. I just decided to have that familiar comforting taste I havent had since last fall.

For this reason, I havent lost in a long time. Im so happy for the rest of you here that are sticking to your plan.

Today, I am sending kudos to biblioholic and Keri (although there are many here who are terrific influences..Im partial to these two today.) You two have encouraged me through your journaling and messages to get back to the basics.