Diario de missingme, 17 abr. 19

My son has a varied schedule. He rotates between 3 and 4 day work weeks, 12 hour shifts. After work he usually stops at WalMart to pick up his dinner and snacks; he doesn't want me to have to put the meal on the table twice.

Although my husband and I have explained more than once that bringing us treats and/or snacks is not necessary. He means well. He said something to me the other night and it caused me to pause. He handed me a box of chunky chocolate chip cookies and said that if this small treat makes us feel good and it puts a smile on our faces then he's happy. Although his feelings are genuine, he's a food pusher. That is a learned behavior; obviously he leanred it from me. I wasn't aware of my behavior until the other night. What have I done.

I come from a large family so pushing others to eat was not in my mother's DNA. We were a single income family and there were 8 kids to feed so leftovers were important to her. My mother was a good cook and meals were always well balanced.

It was during my first bout of depression that I started using food as a reward. I started all this. No one has the power to make me eat anything; it's all a matter of choice. I choose to either be healthy and set a good example or I choose to continue on this same path. I have to believe I will use the good sense God gave me.

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842 kcal

Grasa: 38,60g | Prot: 48,69g | Carbh: 74,31g.   Desayuno: Slim-Fast High Protein Creamy Chocolate Shake. Almuerzo: Chicken Wrap. Cena: Food Club Finely Shredded Mexican Natural Cheese Blend, Progresso Creamy Tomato with Basil Soup. Pasa Bocas / Otros: Wal-Mart Bakery Soft Double Chocolate Cookies. más...